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Sunday, 23 August 2009

  • My dear friends,

    Sorry I haven't been current with this thing. But, I will update soon, promise. Just not tonight. I haven't been on xanga in awhile, seems as if I almost forgot about it.

    Take care everyone.

    Much Love,

    Amanda

Thursday, 09 July 2009

  • Currently
    Lady Antebellum
    By Lady Antebellum
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    The therapy of music

    I always have realized that music gets to me. It touches a plethora of emotions within me, always. Whether it's the tune or the lyrics, it's always been there, always. It conveys so many emotions, touches so many boundaries I have had up inside of me, things I never wanted to admit.

    Great songwriters and poets have the ability to piece lyrical words together to create words so incredibly powerful on the human psyche. That's what I love, poetry, music, thinking about life deeper than the everyday trivalities. I feel a calling to work on my poetry more. I haven't done any poetry in quite a while, I always love the emotions and depth it produces in me.

    The best writers are those who discuss things without regard to their audience, raw human emotion that someone has been too afraid to express before them. That gets to me like nothing else. I'm tired of cliches.

    Some lyrics that get to me:


    But oh this sun is blinding me
    As it wakes me from the dark
    I guess the world didn't stop
    For my broken heart

    Clocks still tickin, life goes on
    Radio still plays a song
    As I try to put my scattered thoughts in place
    And it takes all the strength I've got
    To stumble to the coffee pot

    For My Broken Heart by Reba McEntire

    or

    A baby's born in the middle of the night in a local delivery room
    They grab his feet smack him till cries he goes home the next afternoon
    Before you know he's off to school and he graduates in May
    Goes out and gets a Ph.D. and then cures all sorts of things
    Wins a Nobel Prize and saves a million different lives
    The world a better place for all he's done
    It's funny when think about the reason he's alive
    Is all because two people fell in love

    Two People Fell in Love by Brad Paisley


    But lyrics, to me, are the most important thing. If the lyrics are horrible, I won't like the beat that goes with it, period.

    On a different note, I decided to keep note of all the little things that happen in my life so when I'm 80 I can look back and revel in the way things were. Should be interesting.

    Goodnight, for real this time.
  • Currently
    Thriller
    By Michael Jackson
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    An Update

    I haven't blogged for awhile and right now I have nothing in particular I wanted to blog about other than to say hi to everyone I know. But, if you're looking for some type of intruging and deep topic I'm afraid you've come to the wrong place--for the moment anyway.

    So, I've been good. My mother just got a hysterectomy and she's doing fine for the most part, just in a lot of pain and she tires easily. I've spent most of my days these past few weeks taking care of my mom and my sister. It's been monotonous, it's been tiring. Not that the taking care of my little sister is anything new, for those who know me I know I take care of her most of the time. But, maybe it's my purpose right now. Maybe it's, eek...dare I say..God's purpose now?

    But, I'm not complaining. These are moments with my family that will never come again. I'm so grateful for them even though I do complain at times. How much harder would it be if I wasn't living with them now?

    A few weeks ago, my sister, her fiancees' brother, and I dressed up as zombies and were extras in a video for a film contest. It was so much fun! Here are some pictures:


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    There is also a video on facebook, although I have no idea how to put it on Xanga.

    Anyhow, I felt like putting a day in the life, so..here you go!

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    Brother, possibly blackmail photo? Eh, it's not that bad.

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    Baby Rachel, gosh..she's not even a baby anymore! She's 7 now.

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    Hope you like the photos! I really wish I had something more insightful to say at the moment. But, my insightfullness always seems to come at times when I have no way to write it down and it drifts from my mind. But, I will leave you with one thing:

    "...and the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."-Unknown


    I will try to write more frequently. Nite.

Saturday, 20 June 2009

  • Reba

    One of my idiot "friends" put on his status message on facebook, if you like Reba, then delete me. That was right after I signed up for a Reba fan group. So, guess what? I DELETED HIM!

    You know, I don't expect you to like my music, but at least respect it.

    Reba has been one of my favorite singers since childhood, I adore her, she's my favorite singer. I mean, what would any self respecting person do in that situation? Delete the said person, right?

    This is why I love Reba:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Q9S3cT18Fs

    or

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_JwVf0AV8sg

    Other news, I'm going to be a zombie in an upcoming movie. I'm excited!

    More later...

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

  • Toxic Relationships

    Ever had one of these?

    I'm currently in one now. Although it's not really a "relationship" per se. It has caused me so much pain and frustration. But, part of me doesn't want to let it go. The other part wants to move on.

    I'm not one to burn bridges. I've never done it before, and to actually do it, to ignore all his calls, emails, and texts, is proving to be difficult and it hasn't even been that long.

    I'm afraid I could miss out on something really great if I give it up, or if I don't.

    I don't know if I'm strong enough to do this.